First Christmas and New Year without You!!

“Last year and this year, everything was different” I read this words on the news feed on my twitter account. And when I was reading it, I felt sadness. Maybe because this is the first time we will celebrate special occasion like Christmas and New Year without her.

I really miss her. I am saying this words to her, to the person that I didn’t show my love at all. And I regret it. To the person that passed away unexpectedly. To the person that keeps on praying for our sake. To the person that keeps on believing that everything will be fine someday. To the person that I ignored every time she wanted to talked to us. To the person I really wanted to be with us. To the person that I never expected that I will get hurt when she left the world. That person is the reason why I cried every night before I sleep. The person who loves on planting (especially flowers, vegetables and fruits) that person was really love cleaning the surroundings and helping people. That person who really admired God our savior. I just realized how perfect and good she is. But it’s too late. She’s now in heaven. I don’t know why I didn’t saw it when she’s alive. I really regret it. I just realized how important she is. I want to show my love to her. But it’s too late. I just hope she’s happy wherever she is. And I know that in the right time we will meet again. And in that time I will show my love to her and how proud I am to have her in my life.

We are now waiting for the year 2016. But it’s not complete. I feel very sad. I can’t celebrate it well. I’m not enjoying it. Instead I’m enjoying the rain outside while writing this for my blog. And also while reminiscing the memories of you when you’re alive. I miss your cooked. Especially the Suman. And I remember last year, its 12am of 2015 you come in front of us and kissed us. And that thing will never happen again now. I know you’re still there protecting and guiding us every day. And for sure you will kiss us when 12 am of 2016 come, but we will never feel it again or we are not aware.

We still doing the same thing we did last New Year like preparing round fruits and some other Pamahiin. We still cooked foods for Media Noche.

This New Year is really different. I don’t know why I can’t feel it. It’s not the same. It’s just like there’s no reason to celebrate.

My life is incomplete without you..

Special occasions can’t celebrate without you.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!

ANNOUNCEMENT: Year End: Good Bye 2015 and Hello 2016

Life was never easy. There’s a lot of sacrifices, regrets, failures, and rejections. But still, to be able to success you must stand up after those trials that tests your capability in this world. And that’s capability makes you stronger. You must change the way you think. Erase the negatives and replaced it by the positive thoughts. Use your weakness as a weapon to survive. Fight your fear. You will be success someday if you change your mind set into positive. In this world everything is a test, a test with a twist. No one can direct your life but only you. It’s your choice on how you are going to use your life.

Year 2015 is not easy. There’s a lot of laughter’s and tears. There are also disappointments. There are times that you feels you cannot carry the burden anymore. There’s a lot of expectations that leads to disappointments. But to be able to overcome all of the challenges you are facing right now, you must seek for the guidance of our Lord.

Financial problem, family problem, school works, problem with the friends and professors, sickness accomplishment, failure and many more. All of this things happened in this year. But I’m proud to say that we overcome it. Why financial problem? It’s because I have two siblings that are still studying: two college and one high school. And it’s too hard to budget your daily income. My family income is divided into allowance, transportation, monthly bills (Electric, Water and Internet Bill) foods, tuition fees, savings and many more. How did I know? It’s because I always asked my mother regarding this things. Why family problem? It’s because my parents are having arguments sometimes (misunderstandings) but still in the end of the day they still love each other. Family problem is not only in my family, but also about our relatives in my father’s side. A problem that since then never be solve. But I’m hoping that one day, it will fix. School works? Well obviously I have done a lot of paper works last semester until now. A lot of exams and quizzes. And one of my subject was very near to failed. But now, I have time management to finish all of those task. Problem with friends and professors. Friends first, misunderstanding sometimes. Professors? One of my biggest problem, I hate terror professors. I hate recitations. I’m afraid to say a wrong answers. I always think every time I recite that “What if they laugh? What if I’m wrong? What if… What if’s???” (A lot of what ifs is not healthy). Professors always giving hard task to be submit very soon. (Within a short period of time). Why sickness? This year I was been sick. Cough and colds. It happens three times this year. Not only me but my entire family got sick. My father has a bad feeling with her right upper arm, but now it’s already cured. My youngest sister we thought that she was having a tuberculosis but it’s not true. Accomplishment? This year was the year were my sibling (youngest sister) graduated at high school, passed the entrance examination in the university and I have been passed the scholarship program in our place. This year we also buy Tablet and Android phone using my own money. And also we are now having Internet/Wi-Fi connection. On the way to progress. That was a great accomplish for us right now. But if there’s positive there’s are also negative. My uncle in my father side died (Bone Cancer) last May if I’m not mistaken. And also my Grand Mother in my Father’s side died. She died unexpectedly and losing her is one of the greatest regrets I have ever made in my entire life. I didn’t expected that she will passed away just like that. And I admit it, I can’t move on to her. I still remembering the moments with her. I always reminiscing the moments. Day by day I always remember her. Need to accept that she’s gone or else I’ll be crazy. I know she’s always at our side guiding us.

That was a summary of all the test we faced this year. And I am glad and proud that we overcome it together. I thanked God, my family, friends, and also those people who keep us down but still we can stand and managed the situation. Everything happens for a reason. God’s plan is still the best.

I hope this 2016 will be a nice year to all of us. More on good lucks than bad lucks. More on positives than negatives. More on love than anger. Leave the past behind and live in the present. Throw away the problem in the past and face the present. Life is too short to waste on crap. Hoping that 2016 will have peace. Good government. Election2016 elect the deserving candidates in the position. Graduated College and High school (Possible achievements next year). No more strong typhoons. Clean surroundings. And many more. Spread the love.

Now that 2015 is coming to an end, I want to thank 2015 for making me stronger and teaching me a lot of lessons that I can be apply next year. Good bye 2015, ‘til we see each other again. Hello/Welcome 2016 and I am now ready to face another test and lessons in life. I am ready to learn more and be stronger than before. I am ready to achieve and accomplish more. I am ready to reach my dreams very soon. Ready to fail, ignore, and reject (if ever) I am ready!

Dream! Believe! Survive!

Believe in the power of your dreams.

2015 NOW SIGNING OFF.

2016 NOW ON DUTY..

I Love My Friend Cheap

Is friends are important to you? Can you live without them? What qualities are you looking for a true friend should have? Which is most important? Quantity or quality? Are you proud on what you have right now? Did you regret it? Or you are so proud to have them? How can you assure that they are true to you? Are they always there when you need them? Are they always at your side in your up’s and downs?

“No man is an island”. It means that you can’t live alone. You need them to have a better and happy life. But sometimes some of them are just using you to make their life better and after that they will just leave you alone. Did you get what I mean? Actually I know some of them. How can you assure that your friends now are not using you for their own sake?

Who I am as a friend? For me, I am the type of friend that will do everything just to have a close relationship with my friends. I am the type of friend that always wants a surprise. I know how to payback. (Not in financial, well I admit it.) What I mean is I know how to pay back, like favor and other concerns. I always want my friends to be happy that’s why I always tell silly jokes, make funny faces, clumsiness, and singing out of the tune. I want my friends happy. Sometimes I treat them also if I have extra money. I want to make each moment perfect. Share laughter, tears, failure and success. In this way you can make your relationship much stronger.

I also have friends. (Of course) My group of my friends was not perfect. We also have problems and we also feels annoyed if we don’t like the way they talked or acted. I am the type of friend that once you have said something and I feel offended on the words or terms they use to describe me, that word/term will never leave my brain on thinking. I always did. Let me share you something. These are some of the problem we encounter (every other month/we argues infrequently).

One of the problem we encounter is that sometimes we didn’t understand each other. Like for example I’ll call my closest friend then we talk very fast to the point that we did not heard very well what we say to each other and later on we will have arguments about that. Another things is that when we are going to school we are always met in one particular place to go altogether to school. But the problem was when some of them come very late and we waited for so long. Another thing is that when we are having good times we did not recognized that some of us was hurt in the words or the way we deliver our words by that the whole time will be serious. Next is when they didn’t understand what’s happening in your life now. And lastly is when some of them asked for a favor and no one granted her favor. This is just a simple problem that easily to solve. So far we didn’t yet encounter too heavy problems in our group.

It’s good when the friends you have right now is easy going, knows how to have fun, can keep secrets, help you in your up’s and downs, honest, never break your trust, doesn’t judge you whether you are fat, thin, black or white (Or whatever they look likes) and the most important qualities I am looking for a friend is that: they will accept me. My real me. That I will never be shy to show the real me. It’s very nice to have a friends that are not easily offended, can ride on in joke time, and never leave you, always have communications when they are apart from you.

And now. I think I choose the right friends for me. All the qualities I want is in there. We have the same characteristics that’s why we are having a close relationships. “Birds that has the same feathers flocks together” We accept each other weaknesses and failures, strengths and success. Accept each other negative and positive attitudes. Sharing same ideas, topics and opinions. Sharing different facts and answers. Sharing moments. We’re not perfect, but we became perfect because we love each other more than a friend (just like siblings with different parents) we’re not rich but we accept each other. We love each other unconditionally. They are not bad influence (maybe in half way) but there are more good influence to me. They are God fearing, hard working in schools, does have respect to their parents, they does not using cigarettes or drinking alcohol. They are very perfect and it’s really hard to find again like them. That’s why I will never allow myself to lose them in my life.

I love my friend cheap because we don’t need money to buy expensive things to make us happy instead we need each other to share and make every moment perfect. Quality is more important than quantity. I don’t need a lot of friends because I know some of them are faked. I rather choose quality. A good quality that will last forever. A good quality with a cheapest price.