Monday, February 19, 2018

The Graduation Speech






“ ..... Congratulations Batch 2018-2019. You are now officially graduated and I’m looking forward to see you again after many years. After this important day of your life, I hope you’ll start immediately to build the foundation of your success. Once again, Congratulations!! “ 

The University President ended her Speech for our Graduation. And obviously the speech is not that entertaining or amusing at the same time. The speech has been repeated every year. They just changed the Batch Year.

“ Ladies and Gentlemen please get ready for the speech of our Magna Cum Laude; Ms. Elizabeth Fuentebella. Give her a round of applause. “
So, here’s the go signal. They finally mentioned my name. They will now receive the sweet taste of my revenge. Why revenge? You’ll understand once you finish reading this story. I’ll prove to you that school officials were also having corruptions. Connections matters to be popular. So that all the staff will be in favor if you have the power. And it’s true. Power controls everything. Power can take someone’s life.

I walked straight to the stage. Holding the microphone while holding an old piece of paper. Staring to all the graduates. And I can feel tears flowing to my face. My heart beats too fast. My hand is shaking. Everyone is just looking at me, wondering what I am doing. Why I am just looking at them so eagerly. As my tears drop, I started my speech.

Congratulations to all of my batch mate. The academic year 2013-2014 is never been easy to all of us… “
Everyone is wondering and whispering to each other questioning why I state the wrong academic year. But still, I continue reading my speech.

“ … Time elapsed. We haven’t notice that the end has been approaching so fast. That a new whole world is waiting for us to conquer the challenges that awaits us. Challenges that will make us stronger and much better than we are right now. So, to all of my batch mate. Don’t be afraid to face the reality. It’s been an awesome experience. It will give meaning to your life. Because if you always avoid and ignoring to face hardships, nothing will happen. Nothing will improve. Because you limit yourself already to see the outside world. There’s a lot of things to explore outside the box. Let yourself to improve and experience the amazing things in life. But all of these won’t happen if not because of our respectable professors. They help us, they prepare us for this. All thanks to them, without them, we’re not here right now wearing the most beautiful outfit on Earth. And also be proud of yourselves, ourselves. Because we too, has been so tough enough to stay late at night to review, to finish a project, to do a lot of paper works. We too should be proud of ourselves because we survived the trembling experience during class recitation and participation, class performance and class projects. We too should be proud of ourselves because we overcome the hardships during enrollment. Waking up early just to fall in line first. The feeling that your heart beats so fast as you open the piece of paper containing your grades and the happiness you felt that you passed them all. Guys, don’t forget the happiness we felt when we saw our grades. Because once we success to our chosen fields, the same emotion will explode. And I knew that all of us really like it! Right? HAHAHAHA.. So, this is it guys. We already reached the end of our studies. The 15 years of studying was already done. And there’s a lot of things to be missed. The memories we planted here will always be here inside of us. The lessons that we have learned will use to protect us in the future. But what I really miss is that, our class rooms wherein we all started dreaming together. The funny moments during class discussions. To our professors that is no joke. To Sir Michael, you taught us how to be fun while learning. We’ll ‘gonna miss your Jokes and you being stricted during examination and quizzes. To, Ma’am Thelma, you treated us like you kids. You’re with us as always. To Ms. Perez, you make our heart breaking to your breath taking recitations. To your brother Sir. Perez, you made us to stop thinking while you’re in the class. It’s because you always feel our presence, you always read our minds. HAHA.. To Ms. Leonora, you made our College Life fun. Thank you for not attending class more often, because of that we have time to do the home works for the other subjects. HAHAHA. To. Sir Eric, you made our Physical Education so fun. Because of that you all witness my clumsiness. My god. I hate PE’s. HAHAHA! Guys honestly I don’t wanna end this speech. Because there’s a lot of things I wanna say. This is just the 10% of it…”

Everyone’s face is questioning me why I mentioned the names of the professors from the other department. 

“ .. But because every beginning has its ending. Therefore, this speech does also have its ending. Ending. It comes in two way. There’s a sad ending and a happy ending. And obviously this ending is happy. So let’s start the new phase in our life happy and proud of ourselves. To my friends. Lea, Cherry, Angel and Ailyn thank you to all of you. You made my college life so fun. To my parents thank you for raising me to be a good daughter, a good sister and a good student.. To everyone. Thank you and have a good and interesting journey in life! Congratulations Batch 2013-2014!”

My fellow graduates don’t know if they will going to clap or not since I tell weird things in my speech. Everyone is mumbling again because my friends name I mentioned didn’t exist in my batch.
I stay still in the stage watching them. Looking at them. From the graduates, professors, Campus Dean and the President, to all of the staff. They looked at me full of questions.

“ Actually I commit a crime. This Graduation Speech isn’t mine. I didn’t have time to read it beforehand so I can be able to change some facts. I didn’t have a time to change it. I’m sorry for that. You caught me. You witnessed me committing a crime. I’m not good at it. But there are persons who is expert in committing a crime. They can hide all their dirty tactics using their power. They can manipulate everything because they’re powerful. Well, I’ll admit whose Graduation Speech is this. This is my Sister’s supposed-to-be her speech during her graduation. She is Princess Fuentebella! “

Everyone got shocked on what they heard from me.

“ She’s studying so hard and now she’s gone crazy!”

“ She’s totally insane.”

“ What is she talking about?”

“ Drama series has been taken her senses away.”

“ Is this a live show?”

“Nice act!”

I received a lot of different reactions and attentions. But still I continue what I’m doing. No backing out.

“My sister died because someone cheated on her. She died five years ago. Here right in this place.”

“Ms. Fuentebella, what are you doing?!Come down now!” Sir Francis yelled at me. But I didn’t listen.


           ___________  T H R O W B A C K _____________

Five years ago.

My eldest sister is also a graduating student of BSBA Major in Marketing Management that time. She’s also a Magna Cum Laude that time. Unfortunately, something happens. During her actual Graduation, her position has been replaced by the richest kids at school. She as a Magna Cum Laude fades immediately just like that. She’s been confused. Adopting the scenarios little by little. She waited for a couple of minutes, expecting that the host has been announced the wrong names. But nothing has changed. She confronts the assigned staff regarding that thing. And this is what he says;

You can complain if you have connections. But if you don’t have. Just sit back and be quiet!” 

My sister didn’t accept this kind of discrimination. She left the event hall. Running and crying. Because the medal that she was supposed to received will be given to our parent’s tomb. Because that’s what we promised before they died. But someone stole her achievement. Someone stole her happiness. Someone break our promise to our parents. Someone has taken away her life. That day. She died. She is sick. She has a heart problem. And situation like this made her die. The day that we should be celebrating. Turns into the day of mourning. 
          _________________ E N D __________________

The school officials killed my sister! I know revealing this won’t make things change. But I just want you to know that, not all Honor Student deserves the award. Not all student is clean. All of us did something that will raised ourselves more! Not all students wearing medal is bright. And not all students that didn’t received anything is fool!”

“I don’t know why discrimination, politics and connections is running in the veins of this country. Those who more deserve it is always been set aside. And those who didn’t deserve it always have a spot in everything. This nation is using their power to control everything! Those who doesn’t have power always treating bad. And those who is rich has special treatment. I don’t know why I born in this cruel world! This place is a safe haven for the bad folks!”

“I’m not saying this to gather your attention or to be famous. I don’t even need that. I just want to speak this speech today. Because this is my sister’s last words of her studying. I’m not saying this to destroy the school officials or to start an argument to our country. I’m saying this because… because… … this is her last wish before he died. To hear me using her piece to my graduation.”

“By revealing this, I’m ready to accept the consequence of my actions. You might hold my Transcript of Records (TOR), my Diploma or even block me to the famous restaurants and hotel here in the Philippines. I’m ready to accept the consequence. We all knew that you have the power to do that. Well, I’ll prepare myself to be killed after this event. By destroying my future, you will just have killed another innocent life. Then you just prove to me that you don’t know how to fight equally. And this is my graduation speech.”

I go back to my sit. Everyone is looking at me. I just bow my head after all I have done. I know people is cursing me right now. I know they’re mad at me. Well, it’s fine. This life has no point anymore. There’s no point of living if you’re surrounded with fake people.

“You’re so brave! Amazing!”

“I didn’t know that, that kind of acts exist in our University.”

“Don’t worry Elize! We’ve got your back!”

“Elize, you’re not alone!”

“We’re all here for you. You’re a good example of a deserving student! You well deserved what you got today.”

I look at them. They were at my side. They are supporting me. I cried so hard. To the point that I can’t breathe. Someone’s tapping my back. Someone’s saying that I did a great job. 

But what’s amusing is that I saw my Sister in the stage. Smiling. Waving at me. It made me cry even more. 

“Elize, you made our Graduation even more interesting and unforgettable. Thank you for lighten up our spirit. Thank you for proving to us that we something. That we are nothing.” My best friend said.

“That the grades is never been the basis if you’re going to be successful in life. It’s just a piece of sheet (shit). Success comes with a GREAT DETERMINATION AND PASSION! You did well Elize. The most memorable Graduation I ever seen.” Sir Mike said.

And I smiled with tears. Finally, I feel relieved. I can now breathe again freely.


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P.S: Credits to the owner of the photo.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Welcome Back To Blogging!




Welcome Back To Blogging!
 
                Hello! It's been a year since I stop blogging due to busy schedules back when I was studying. Fourth Year College. Graduating Student.. It is not an easy task. There's a lot of circumstances that you need to surpass to be able to achieve your goals. And I will just achieve it if I let go one thing. I have to sacrifice one thing. I have to focus on what is important at this moment. And the thing that I sacrifice is blogging. I never stop writing poems and short story. I just stop publishing them online because I have a lot of things to do while facing the computer. Doing my thesis paper.. Reviewing lessons for exams and quizzes. Expensive finances. And now that I already graduated and an officially a degree holder. I can now continue what I have started. I want to continue blogging. Sharing my thoughts online is an amazing thing for me.

              I know that I'm not "yet" a good writer. I can't express well what I really want to say. But I'm trying my best for it. Although I've got wrong spellings and grammar. I always read books and informative stuff that can be used to improve my skills as a writer. I may not be the best for "now". But I know someday. I will be. Thinking what will be my future is a scary thing. It is something you're clueless about. Your taking your path without knowing what will be it's ending..

               I do believe to this: "Trust your words" and "Believe in the power of your words."

               For now I'm building the foundation of my success.. Good luck to me. I hope I'm taking the right path for me. I hope I won't regret this in the end. For now, let's start building our dreams!


By: Rochelle Parnay Estrella

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Soldiers of Love




Soldiers of Love 0.01

 You admit your feelings last New Year's Eve 
Your expecting me for my heart to give
But I didn't do it and I asked you to leave

The next thing I heard from you was you hide yourself in a cave
You allowed yourself to be a love's slave
In love you don't have experience, you're so naive

I offer my hand to help you to surpass the storm
But you refused and grab someones arm
So glad you learned to be firm

You've know now how to be brave
 You already conquer the wave
In yourself, you saved

You stop to sob
That's a great job
You're one of the soldier's of love 


-By: Rochelle Parnay Estrella

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Thoughts






Wish You Were Here

Wish you were here.. My only wish on my 20th birthday.. Even though you're not here with us, you always make us feel that we're not alone. Thank you because even if you are no longer with us, you always make us feel that you're still alive...


Sana Maging Bata Nalang Ulit Ako

  • Sana maging bata nalang ulit ako. 'Yung walang iniisip na problema. ’Yung puro laro lang iniisip. 'Yung walang pakialam sa paligid niya. At higit sa lahat 'yung wala pang expectations at responsibilities. Kaso walang forever eh. Lumilipas ang oras. Kailangan mag move forward. Kailangang mag try ng bago. Kailangang umalis sa comfort zone and continue improving yourself.. That's life. If you want to grow. Take the risk..


Kung Maibabalik Ko Lang Ang Kahapon

  • Kung maibabalik ko lang ang kahapon. Itatama ko ang lahat ng mga mali ko. Gagawin ko ang mga bagay na dapat ay ginawa ko. Sasabihin ko ang mga salitang dapat ay sinabi ko. At higit sa lahat. Sana naiparamdam ko ang pagmamahal ko sa mga taong nagmamahal 'din sa akin. Eh 'di sana wala akong pinagsisisihan ngayon. Pero posible ba 'yun? Ang hindi ka magkamali at hindi makaramdam ng pagsisisi? Imposible. Naniniwala naman ako na lahat ay nagyayari dahil may dahilan. May dahilan kung bakit mali ang desisyon ko. May dahilan kung bakit hindi ko nagawa ang mga dapat ay ginawa at sabihin ang mga salitang noon pa man ay dapat naibulalas na. At higit sa lahat may dahilan kung bakit hindi ko minahal ang mga taong nagmamahal sa akin. Mga dahilan na siguro ay makalatulong sa'yo, mga dahilan na ikaw naman 'din ang makikinabang balang araw. Sa buhay kung hindi mo pa naranasan ang magkamali, ibigsabihin hindi ka umuunlad. Nananatili ka lang sa posisyon na meron ka ngayon. Walang forever. Itanong mo sa sarili mo kung masaya ka ba at kuntento ka na sa mga bagay na meron ka ngayon sa paligid mo. Higit mo pang tuklasin ang mga bagay na akala mo hindi mo kaya. Dahil sa "What if's" na 'yan nasisira ang lahat. Normal lang naman ang magkamali. Dahil dito ka susubukin kung gaano ka katatag upang harapin ang bawat pagsubok na nakaharang sa daan mo upang magtagumpay. Kailangang matuto ka sa bawat pagkakamali mo at sa pagkakamali ng iba. 'Wag mo nang hayaang mangyari sa'yo bago ka matuto. "Learn from others experience's" mga katagang binitawan ni Sir Victor (isang public speaker) sa seminar na dinaluhan ko. Kung ayaw mong mangyari sa'yo, iwasto mo na hanggang maaga pa. Pero kung nagkamali ka pa 'din, ayos lang 'yan. Dahil ibigsabihin lang niyan ay dapat mo pang pahalagahan ng sobra ang mga bagay na meron ka pa ngayon. Dahil hindi natin alam kung kailan sila babawiin sa atin. Dahil hindi sa lahat ng bagay merong "Second Chance".


Changing Yourself Just To Be Like By Everyone Is Just Like Pretending To Be Someone Else

  • Changing yourself just to be like by everyone is just like pretending to be someone else. Nagpapanggap para magustuhan ng mga tao sa paligid mo. Ayaw mong magmukhang loser at loner. Sabay lagi sa uso. Pa famous. Dahil ayaw mong mareject at iignore. Takot ka na hindi ka nila tanggapin at layuan ka dahil naiiba ka. Natural lang naman na lahat tayo ay magkakaiba. We have our own uniqueness. You don't need to wear your mask to get the attention of everyone. Makukuha mo ang atensyon nila gamit ang sarili mong paraan. Learn to accept and appreciate what you have right now. Because some people are wishing to be in your position while you are wishing also to be in other's situation. Hindi mo kailangang ipagsiksikan ang sarili mo sa mga tao na hindi ka deserve. Hindi mo kailangang mainsicure sa kanila. Iba ka. Iba siya. 'Wag mong ikumpara ang sarili mo sa kanila. Merong mga katangian na tinataglay mo na wala sila. Quits lang lahat. Ang problema lang hindi mo kayang tanggapin ang sarili mo. Paano ka tatanggapin nang ibang tao kung pati ang sarili mo niloloko mo. Parang ang dating 'nun ay niloloko mo na 'din sila dahil nagtatago ka sa likod ng maskara mo. "Love yourself first, before they accept you." Mahalin mo ang sarili mo. Ikaw lang ang makakagawa niyan. Isipin mo. Masaya ka ba na may tinatago ka sa ibang tao? Masaya ka ba na 'di mo naipapakita ang totoong ikaw? Masaya ka ba na kinahihiya mo ang pinanggalingan mo? Ang hindi mo alam. Habang kinahihiya mo sila sa harapan ng ibang tao, sila naman ay taas noo na ipinagmamalaki ka sa iba. Hindi natin kailangang baguhin ang sarili natin upang magustuhan nila tayo. Hindi naman tayo nabuhay para sa kanila. Hindi mo kailangan ang attention, opinyon, at presensya nang mga taong ayaw sayo dahil hindi naman ito makakatulong sayo. Panggulo lang sila. All you have to do is to burn that mask. And be yourself. You don't need to hide your true personality to everyone. "Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all."


No One Can Drag Me Down

No one can drag me down. "If your are destined in higher place, people may try you to put down. But you will still reach your destiny." Quatations na nabasa ko noong Elementary palang ako sa tig-10 pesos na babasahin na binili pa sa akin ni nanay. Myths and Legends ata ang pamagat 'nung manipis na libro. If I am not mistaken. Ang title nang kwento kung saan ko nabasa ang mga salitang iyon ay "The Jars". Simula noong nabasa ko 'yun. Hindi ko na siya nakalimutan. Nakakarelate kasi ako. Totoo naman diba? May mga tao kasi na hindi masaya kapag nagtagumpay ka sa isang bagay. Sa halip hihilahin ka nila pababa. At iyon ang magiging dahilan nila upang lumigaya. Ang makita kang miserable. Ang makita kang lugmok. Pero nagpapasalamat na 'din ako sa mga taong ganun ang pananaw sa buhay. Dahil kung hindi nila ginawa 'yun, walang magiging matatag at walang magiging malakas para harapin ang bukas. Kung wala ang mga problema. Hindi mo maaapreciate ang mga bagay na
darating pa sa'yo. Mahirap ang saya na walang lungkot. At mahirap ang puro ginhawa na walang hirap. Madapa 'man ako, tityakin kong babangon at tatayo ako para harapin ang hamon ng buhay. Walang makapagpapabagsak sa'yo hangga't nasa puso mo Siya. Never say never. Never give up. Do everything if you really want to achieve it. No one can put you down as long as you're with Him in all the battle of your life.


When Your Face And Height Doesn't Match Your Age

  • rochellestar0806When your face and height doesn't match your age. It always happened to me. Especially those persons I meet for the first time. 'Yung hindi tugma 'yung age mo sa height at itsura mo. Napapagkamalan ka tuloy laging hayskul/elementary/bata. Sa bahay, ako ang panganay pero ako 'yung pinaka maliit sa aming magkakapatid. Pinakamatangkad samin 'yung bunso kong kapatid sunod 'yung gitna. Kaya kapag may magpapakilala, ako lagi napagkakamalang bunso at 'yung gitna napagkakamalang panganay dahil daw kasi sa eye glasses niya, nagmumukha siyang matured. Girl labo kase eh. Peace tayo @annesherlie01 .. Advantage o disadvantage ba ang ganitong sitwasyon? Hindi ko 'din alam. Natatawa nalang ako lagi kapag may nakakasita 'nun. Hahaha.. 😝😝 The day before yesterday. May nagsurvey samin. Tinanong ako 'nung ale. "Ilang taon ka na?" "Mag 20 na po." Sagot ko. Tapos ang sagot niya. "Hala. Akala ko 14 ka lang." Tawa nalang ako eh. 😣😣 'Nung nagpainstall kame ng internet. Tinanong ako ni Manong. "Anong year ka na Ne?" "3rd year na po." Sagot ko. "Ahh. 3rd year highschool." Sabi niya. "Hindi po. 3rd year college na po ako. Sa BSU. BSBA po course ko." Sagot ko. "Ahhh. Sorry Ne. Ang bata mo kasi tignan, 'kala ko hayskul ka palang." Ahahaha.. Tawa nalang ulit. XD 😂😂😂 Sa office 'nung nag O-OJT palang kame, height na lagi napapansin samin. Pang anong school daw height namin dahil pantay-pantay lang daw kame. XD 😆😆 Walang advantage ang ganitong sitwasyon. O kung meron man ay 'yun 'yung lagi ka nalang matatawa. Disadvantage. Hindi mo abot 'yung safety hand drills sa mga public transportation. Hindi ka papasukin sa mall hangga't 'di mo pinapakita ID mo. Pag inutusan ako ni Nanay bumili ng sigarilyo paninda namin 'di ako papayagang magpurchase kasi menor de edad daw ako. Sa public transportation ulit. Kapag siksikan sa Bus at Train ikaw lagi maiipit ng mas malalaki sa'yo. At ngayong may curfew na sa mga minors at mag papasukan na. Plano naming magkakaibigan magdala lagi ng NSO Birth Certificate patunay na nasa legal age na kame. 😜😜 Para 'di kame hulihin at makulong. XD Dahil kung hindi namin gagawin, wala na sira na kinabukasan namin. XD. OA. Wahaha.. 😣😣

  • Saan ba ako nagmumukhang bata? Sa itsura ko o sa height ko? Mas convincing siguro 'yung dahil sa height ko.. Wahaha.. 😥😥😥
Count Down For The Last Teen Days..
Last Day Of Being A Nine Teen..


Good Bye Nine TEEN

Life is never easy. And today, I overcome my 19th year. Maraming nangyari. May masaya. May malungkot. May mga maling desisyon ngunit natutunan ang leksyon. May mga taong nawala na kahit kailan hindi makakalimutan. May mga bagay na nangyari na kahit kailan hindi mawawalan ng puwang sa puso't isip ko. May mga nagsara ng pinto ngunit may nagbukas naman ng bintana. May nagkaaway ngunit nagkaayos. At higit sa lahat may mga bagay na nawala na kahit kailan 'di na mababalikan pa. Ang dami kong hindi makakalimutan sa 19th year. Sampung pangyayari na hindi ko makakalimutan. Ayon sa pagkakasunod-sunod. (1). Naging AlDub Fan ako sa loob nang tatlong buwan. Hahaha.. Hindi ako makapaniwala. XD (2). Next is 'yung nagpacheck up si Kapatid at natakot siya sa result 'yun pala false lang. Hindi totoo. Pinilit pasiyahin sa 17th Bday niya. Dama ko lungkot niya ei. XD 😂😂 (3). 'Yung unexpected na nangyari noong October 24, 2015, miss you Lola. (4). Nakabili ako ng first ever android phone ko mula sa ipon ko. Yownn.. Sulit ipon. (5). 'Yung mag nagbalik galing sa nakaraan. Nagbalik nga siya ngunit may nawala nang tatlo. Hindi na siya naintay. (6). Nakilala ko 'yung pinsan kong may lahing Pakistan. Hello Irfan. 😆 (7). 'Yung feasibility study na may defense. Nalagasan ako ng pera dahil diyan. Nalagasan 'din ako ng tulog.. Haha.. (8). Nakapundar ulit kame ng mga gamit/nagkautang. XD (9). 'Yung achievement ni bunso. Best in Arts. Sayang lang hindi siya nakapasok sa Top 10 nila. Nagfocus sa Arts ei. Achievement niya. Achievement ng lahat. Taon-taon nalang pinapaakyat si Nanay sa Stage. XD This School Year kaya? Hahaha.. (10). Pinning Ceremony for OJT's. At 'yung nag intern ako sa Development Bank of the Philippines sa Office of the Head. Naiimagine ko pa hanggang ngayon. 'Di ko akalaing kinaya namin 'yung biyahe sa loob ng 32 days. At ngayon gusto naming bumalik ulit para sariwain. Haha. Kailan kaya..?? S O O N . . 😂😂😂 Sa loob ng isang taon maraming pwedeng mangyari. At bukas ang aking ikalawang dekada. Tanda ko na. XD Hindi na ako "teen". Tapos na ang 19.. 20 naman.. Handa na ako kung ano man ang dadating na pagsubok. Nandiyan naman Siya para gabayan at tulungan ako. GoodBye.. ✋


I'm ready for more battles!

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

My Poems Assemblage #2





Waste Memories

I thought you’re the perfect one
But you did something wrong I thought you’ve never done
I got hurt on what you said
It makes my heart to bleed

Memories we shared together has been lost
Didn’t recognize its cost
You throw away everything about us
Don’t worry this will be the last thing I will discuss

From now on I’ll forget everything
But not the pain you bring
I thought there are forever in friendship
But I realized forever only found in worship

Let’s Continue

We’ve been together for so long
Seems like our friendship are going strong
All the good moments we have shared together
We fight even the bad weather


But one day, we had a fight
It makes me feel fright
It’s not easy to forget all we had
I want to be your friend ‘till our grad

Let’s fix this mess before it’s too late
Let’s forget about this hate
Let’s continue what we have begun
Let’s do a lot of fun. 

Strange Feelings

Why I am feelin’ this way?
Seems like I don’t know what to say
I want to see you every day
In my life I want you to stay

This is the first time I act like this
Before I sleep it was you that I miss
I was thinking of you all the time
But all I have to do is…
          ...to hide this strange feelings just like I commit a crime.

The Last Good Bye

You mean a lot to me at first
But as time elapsed its getting worst
The love I feel for you is starting to lost
Just like it doesn’t have any cost

It’s all your fault in the first place
You made me feel this, just like I don’t wanna’ see your face
I confront you with this sentiments
And I asked you for some betterments

You’ve changed
But my feelings for you remain unchanged
This heart can’t love you anymore
I can’t give back the love I did before

I want to end this relationship
It’s no longer working, all you courtship
Until one day, you made your last GOOD BYE
By hearing those words, I didn’t ask why..

‘Till The End

From the day I was born
As my parents you have sworn
To witness the first word I speak
To change my diaper when its leak
To witness me to learn from crawling to walking
To make milk for me when I’m crying
To give me a nice and comfortable shelter
To send me to school to make my life better

To guide me in the right path
To help me to solve the math
To teach me on what’s good from what is not
To show to me all you’ve got
To accept me even if I’m not perfect
To be overprotect
To love me unconditionally
To be with you eternally

From the day I become the person you want me to be
As your daughter I have sworn that I should be..
There to tell the happy moments you can’t recall
There to help you stand when you fall
Your guide when you lose your sense of sight
There when you feel cold and hug you tight
There to listen to your nonstop stories
With you is the most important than properties

To see you getting old everyday is a scary thing
I don’t know what kind of sadness it would bring
Without you, life will be worthless
Without you I’ll be depress
As your daughter it’s my responsibility
To be your guardian when you lost the capacity
I will be there no matter what happens
Holdin’ and lovin’ you more ‘till the end

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People always have defect
Who among of us is perfect?
Always clean up your mind, to see the light
Listen and stand for what is right
To do bad things to anyone might put you in jail
Lies will never save you to hell
May act and talk like there’s nothing wrong
Lose the ability to feel the guilt that long
The mistakes you’ve done will correct only by you
Capabilities to tell the truth is hard for you
To change for the better is not yet too late
Listen to God’s will and forget the hate
The bad thing will going to forget
Truth will set you free.. I bet!

Meet Their Expectations

Life begins after Graduation
I survived to finish my studies
But now, I am going to face new situation
A new challenge and duties

Responsibility as a student was done
But, responsibility as a daughter has begun
An obligation that shouldn’t take for fun
A task that you’ll never escape even if you run

This time I must become more matured
Be a financial burden is not in my plan
To find a decent work to be secured
I will do everything that I can

To help them to survive in this life
Is now my lifetime obligation
I feel the pressure just like I am crossing in a knife
‘Coz I don’t know if I can meet their expectations..

Balik Tanaw

Sa lugar kung saan ikaw laging natatanaw
Ala-ala sa aking isipan muling pumukaw
Buwan na ‘din ang lumipas nang ika’y lumisan
Pangungulila ng puso ko’y lubusan
‘Tila kahapon lang nangyari ang lahat
Sa puso’t isip ko’y sariwa pa ang sugat
Walang araw na ‘di kita naiisip
Nakikita ka maging sa panaginip

Minsan sa aking pagtulog ika’y nagparamdam
‘Tila may nais sabihin at ipaalam
Sa isipan may nabuong katanungan
Sagot sa tanong ikaw lang ang makakatugon
Nais ko sana’y ika’y magbalik
Sa halik at yakap mo’y nasasabik
Ipaparamdam pag-ibig na ‘di mo nakamtan
Kailanman ay ‘di kita malilimutan

Twelve Plans

First Plan is to enter school
                 To be not a fool
Second Plan is to finish high school
                       To be cool
Third Plan is to take Entrance Test
                    To prove that you’re the best
Fourth Plan is to finish College
                      To earn more knowledge
Fifth Plan is to find a decent work
                  To be not a jerk
Sixth Plan is to help my parents and siblings
                   As my sign of thanks giving
Seventh Plan is to live life to the fullest
                       To do everything in my list
Eighth Plan is to get married
                       To feel alone is unworried
Ninth Plan is to have children
                   To have a grandchildren
Tenth Plan is to support their needs
                    Without selling a weeds
Eleventh Plan is to recede
                    It’s time to concede
Twelfth Plan is to wait for the time you’ll die
                        Last chance to say good bye…
           Life is too short, do not waste it..


Unspoken

I have a lot of words to tell
At the mountain I want to yell
To ease the pain
Inside of me I was drain

I tried to express what I feel
I want this hurt to heal
To forget this is difficult
To someone I consult

But, instead to feel better
They just make me feel bitter
They’ll never understand my situation
Until they feel the same frustration

To keep this alone is the best decision
Never told anyone about my condition
In outside I’m okay but inside I’m broken
Because of those words remain unspoken..

I Can Do ‘Coz It’s Me

Everyone thinks that I can’t do
But I know to myself it’s not true
Everyone thinks I’m a failure
But I know they’re just insecure
Everyone thinks I’m a loser
But I know they’re a user
Everyone thinks that I’m a dumb
But I know they’re a numb
Everyone thinks I’m just a junk
But I know they’re a punk
Everyone thinks that they can put me down
But I know to myself that I can wear the crown

I know to myself that I can
I’m just following my plan
I know to myself that I am the achiever
Because I’m not a cheater
I know to myself that I am smart
On my own I’ll start
I know to myself that I’m going to be success
By that time, to me you were going to confess
Someday I’ll prove to all of you that you’re wrong
That behind of those situations I can be strong
I will be the person that you don’t want me to be

The one who will be sitting in the throne is me

Reflection

I know exactly what I wanted to be
To express it I was not free
I want to show the real me inside
But someone who has already decide
On what should I do
Even if it makes me feel blue
On what should I speak
That makes me feel weak
On what should I looks like
That makes me feel fake
I want this pretending be done
Or else I want this life be gone

To know myself more is ruin
Seems like I don’t know what I’m doin’
The real me was burned
And no one else was concerned
To show the real me is a choice
I want them hear my voice
Even someone might feel the pain
‘Coz they’re expecting me to reign
I look in the mirror
To see it much clearer
That I am going to the right direction

The real me will be seen in the reflection

Revenge

You hate me from the very first
In front of me you always cursed
You always spreading false stories
But I didn’t attack you in your territories

You always destroying my image
Everyone thinks I’m a stinky garbage
You’re happy when you saw me suffering
What I’ve done to you, I’m just wondering

Still, I remain silent I did nothing
Never waste my time on those thing
Until one day I reach my limit
To ruin my career you don’t have the permit

I face you because of those accusations
I can’t take it, all the bad impressions
From head to toe you gave me a bad stare
And laugh at me doesn’t have any care

To see me miserable is your happiness
To put people down is your expertise
You count every people you’ve demolished
For you it’s a mission accomplished

But I know everything is just temporary
As long as He is with me I don’t need to worry
One day I will have the courage

To rise above you is my best revenge

Don’t Keep It Aside

You have the talent
But you choose to remain silent
You have the potential
Knowing that you’re special

You just keep on hiding it
Afraid to be judge by it
Imagining how people would react
You may attract them and not to distract

People thinks you’re nobody
Without thinking that you can be somebody
They’re thinking you can do nothing
Until you prove something

One day you did something they didn’t expect
Everyone was amaze saying you’re perfect
You feel glad for all the compliments
And you think you need some improvements

Because for you it was not enough
For you it was just a bluff
You think all the praises was a trick
Change your mindset or else you’ll got sick

Be proud your ability
Do all your best in all the activity
In this world, you can’t hide
Let them see it, don’t keep it aside

By: Rochelle Parnay Estrella